only two words to describe me now..... tired and pissed.... today was the first day of the new semester and it started pretty well with the first few hours of lab.... at least i managed to keep myself awake then.... but after the lab session, it all went downhill.... i was practically sleeping throughout the lecture and tutorial in the evening.... but i had only myself to blame.... i watched the euro final early this morning..... haha.... i was really in a "blur" state of mind.... couldn't concentrate at all..... was juz so so dead tired.... and to make it worse, i had to stay back after school to help the german club set up their booth for club crawl.... i dragged myself to meet the group.... i was unwilling to go but i would feel really really bad if i didn't go..... what to do..... oh ya, greece won.... cool siah! was rooting for them actually cause i juz love rooting for the underdogs.... for the soccer romantics, it is a dream come true.... haha... and i was watching the match with my sister..... that's a first.... never thought that my sis watched soccer.... but it was really cool to watch it with her.... she was saying that the greeks are cute.... haha.... what only!

and for the pals booth, well its a disaster.... its tmr and we seriously haven done much.... and i juz got a call from that someone who says that he forgot that he has an appointment tmr and can't make it for the club crawl.... what the hell man! you FORGOT?!! crap! who's going to help take charge of the booth tmr? you can't juz leave those poor pals all alone there by themselves.... they need you to brief and guide them..... you are in charge for goodness sake!! man, this club crawl is going to be the worse for pals ever and i'm ashamed to say that i was part of it..... crap....

well, i did something really bad today.... feeling kind of guilty now.... i'm turning into this really really horrible monster that i never thought existed inside of me.... i guess i was juz too stressed out and too tired, but still that was no excuse for what i did.... why did i have to do that? i don't know.... i'm juz crazy i guess.... i'm really feeling like crap now....

juz now a friend that i met online a few months ago confessed her feelings to me.... was kinda shock when she told me that.... well, i told her that i'm not ready for anything and that i want us to be friends..... glad that she was understanding enough.... well for you, i juz wanna say that there are many many guys out there who are way way better than me..... get to know more friends first.... anyways, you haven met me yet, so i may not be the person that you think i am.... but i'm glad you told me bout it.... really appreciate it girl..... it takes lots of guts to do that.....

oh ya, jasmine called me juz now.... i had asked her to help me get more people for the club crawl..... and she told me something shocking.... haha.... and i'm not supposed to say anything as its meant to be a surprise..... cool siah.... apparently, only a few people know bout it..... yea, no worries jas, i'll keep my mouth shut.... for now that is.... haha....


Riz lost himself at 7/05/2004 11:07:00 pm

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